Monday, October 29, 2012

dear Madey:

hi miss madge,

how are you? i miss you. a lot. and you've been on my mind quite a bit lately.
i don't know if it's the change in the weather or something else entirely. but i can't help it.
and i'm glad.

lately, i've fallen in like with this song. every time i hear it, i can see you doing your weird jello-legs dance in my head. so i listen to this song. a lot. and i love it. you always did have better, weirder moves than the rest of us white kids.
because of this song, i watched you dance to the "filet 'o' fish" song several times last night on dad's ipod. all dressed up to look like grandpa rodney, with your shirt tucked into your plaid pajama pants, hat on sideways, and loosened tie around your neck while you held that singing fish on your shoulder like a boombox. we are so classy like that.

sunday night, landon and dad came home from home teaching. cam and i were sitting at the counter. landon was standing next to me telling me about something that was probably important that i can't remember. all i can remember is that as he talked, he moved his hands and arms just like you used to when you told me something that you really wanted to say. i was so surprised that i really have no idea what he even told me about. [sorry, landon.]

i watch peanut head on thursdays right now and i love it. its only for a few more weeks until aunt katie has little baby boy. buts its fun. she loved you. whenever we play, i can see the two of you in the hotel pool, playing and being silly. hearing you both giggle.

we talked about home videos the other day and the memories they help us remember.
how you whined about getting a regular orange in the bottom of your stocking one christmas and landon replied "hey! i got a peach, too!!" like he had won the lottery.

how you freaked the freak when you didn't get a scooter like you wanted. except then you really did.
so embarrassing.

how we were learning to play the guitar together. i really don't play anymore. its too painful.
my heart can't handle all the memories that come rushing back when i do.
like the day mom told me she bought you a guitar for christmas. and i turned green with envy.
the day we both got guitars. talk about a surprise for us both.
[how rude of my parents to wrap up guitar picks and give them to me. i handed the box to you and said "um, i think these are yours." but then you had your own box, too...]
all those taylor swift songs. and how you never said capo right. ever.
the days when you rarely left your room. the only thing you did was strum and sing.
because that's all you had the energy for.
the duets. i will always miss the duets.
[and how you hated when hillary joined in because her rhythm was always just a teeny bit off. still is.]

i had a friend ask me about you today. i was glad she did.
because then i got to remember all of the fun things we did together.
all of the softball and basketball games.
all of the chocolate chip cookies and cupcakes we baked.
and ate.
all of the fantastic things we get because we are a family.
a forever family.
and i am glad.

i miss you, momma bird...
i love you. more than a snail loves his shell.
be sweet.

Friday, October 26, 2012

new job.

once upon a time, i got a job as a loan officer.

it was a welcome change after being a teller for 3 1/2 years.
but it was also very terrifying.

i had only done a handful of loan applications before
and i had never closed on a loan before.

then on my 2nd day as a brand new loan officer, a girl came into to close on her auto loan and finalize everything.

that was the day that i unconsciously decided to be dyslexic.
transposing numbers. bad thing.
i was only $27 off. okay thing.
i learned a lot that day. better thing.

here's to praying it goes much smoother next time.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

island park, idaho. & yellowstone national park.

cam and i had fall break this week and decided to join my family in island park for a couple of days for a break. {i thrive on vacation.}

we packed up the car and headed on a 4 hour road trip.
long time in the car.
we chatted about life and things we love and how freaking awesome it is that we get to be together forever.
being married is awesome.

and the drive to island park is long but pretty. especially the part with lots of pine trees. love it.

we made it to my uncle's cabin. {thank you, uncle gym!}
and played with nate and sarah's puppies. adorable.
and now i'm going through puppy love withdrawls.

then we drove to big springs and saw all the giant trout. it was cold.
and we swallowed gnats. gross.
and there was no toilet paper in the bathroom there. double gross.
but it was still fun!

he's a babe. i'm making a little bit of a cheese face.

little brother, quit growing up.

we went back to the cabin and played scrabble for the first time. dad won. by a lot.
and then played phase10 before bed.

we slept in a little. ate some delicious man-breakfast {hash browns, eggs, and sausage. yum.}
then got ready and headed into yellowstone!

so excited for yellowstone!
we saw some amazing animals. giant buffalo that walked right next to the car. terrifying and awesome.

12 point bull elk. absolutely magnificent.
bald eagles. there are no words for how majestic these animals are.
and some chipmunks. can't leave out the chipmunks.

we saw mammoth hot springs, and they were mostly dried up. which was weird.

there was a herd of cow elk roaming through, just sitting on the thermal hot ground, keeping warm.
it was really neat.
we watched the elk and ate lunch in the car because it was super cold and windy.
then headed back to the other end of the park.

we stopped at gibbon falls {i think?}
the best view isn't right by the parking lot where everyone stops.
walk an extra 100 feet down the pavement. worth it.

my favorite geological feature we saw was the grand canyon of yellowstone from the south rim.

it was gorgeous.
and it made me wonder how anyone in the world can believe that there is no heavenly father up above looking out for us.
as i stood up on that lookout point, all i could feel was awe and love.
love for cam and my family.
love from my family.
love from my father in heaven and savior.
it was just a reaffirmation to me that i am loved and that my heavenly father has a plan for me and my family.
i know it.
i love it.

he is so cute in plaid flannel. most handsome lumberjack ever.
we then visited old faithful right after it had exploded.
awesome. bad timing.
but their bathrooms were warm so that was a plus.
{it was freaking freezing}

then we headed back to west yellowstone and to dinner.
we met up with the rolfe family. {hi guys! so good to see you!}
we ate mcdonalds.
we have no shame.
its fine.

cam and i finished our burgers and fries, hopped in the car, and headed out.
2 1/2 hours later than planned. but it was worth it.
i only slept for about an hour on the way home. which is definitely a record.
i'm a car sleeper. it makes cam crazy because then he gets bored with no one to talk to.
{sorry, lover. i can't help it.}

we made it home at 11:30 last night. exhausted but we had a great time.

we love vacation.
{and i'm counting down until we get to go again...}

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

hi ho, hi ho, its off to yellowstone we go...


be back soon...

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Thursdays with Avery.

On Thursdays, I babysit my cute cousin, Avery.. 
She makes me realize that I have a lot to work on before I become a mom...
Last week, we baked chocolate chip cookies. I let her lick the beater after we were done. 
The smile says it all...

 Then, while I cleaned up, Octopus became the bad guy, and Unicorn had to save Baby Koala from his evil tentacles. 
Oh, to be young again...

Today, we painted dot trees. 
Hers is an apple tree. with snakes in it. 
Mine isn't nearly as exciting.

We built Mr. Skeleton out of q-tips. 
[thank you, Pinterest!]

and then colored alphabet pages.

All before it was time to go to preschool.